Life. Sucks.
I mean, I know that probably makes me sound like the biggest teenager ever, but it's true. This is basically a bitch session about everything wrong with my life.
First off, the most obvious, my health. I mean, hell. I can't do anything without being affected by it. I know a lot of people are like this, but I'm 17 and really just want to be able to feel like it. Even just every once in a while would be nice. But no. I'm in pain every second of every day. Take drugs? Why? They incapacitate me too. But which ones the lesser of two evils, the pain or the drugged haze? Like honestly. I can't even get through high school without my health effing it up for me. I'm falling back a year because of it. How shameful is that? Like, ooh, I can't graduate on time because I'm a cripple. Like I want to draw even more attention to myself.
And like, what is with my inability to be in a healthy relationship? I can't even find someone in person. Am I that horrible of a person? That I have to go looking on the internet for guys? And obviously that hasn't worked out in my favor. And then they have to come back into my life and rub salt in the wound, usually as soon as I've gotten over them.
I don't really understand what I'm doing wrong. Obviously something, or shit wouldn't be like this. Like I said, this is basically just a bitch session, and I hope all you readers don't think less of me because of this post.
P.S. I'm not sure if I'm gonna keep this blogging thing up for much longer.
Anyway. Deuces.
